A new start

Life can be a bitch
And life can be so rich

But if you never dispair
Keeping hoping beyond what’s unfair
Fighting for your life to give it a sense
You’ll be rewarded after being tensed

This is the moment my dears
Releaved from all my fears
I can at least be here in the right place
Keeping up the race

Enjoying friendship sincerely
Testing freedom truely
Far away from your cruelty

I’m gonna go for it now
Again and again til I’m bound to bow

Géraldine

Cherished brother

There has been a time I had a brother
By playing for hours, we cherished each other
I loved you as much as my own being
But it suddenly quit without me understanding

What did I do for you to leave that way?
Have I been so mean, you, what would you say?
Don’t know what happened next
You set up weird new reflex
Loosing your mental health

What meant all your obsessions and rituals to recover fitness?
Why did you mention me as the dirtiness?
I roamed for truth for more than two decades
Searching, suffering, finally facing these masquerades

Now I know you’re not guilty in any kind
Your eyes saw things that made you out of your mind
Live your life now brother, I agree to bow
We all have to dig our furrow

I just pray for you not to go
Where our father fooled himself, he poor scornful outlaw
Let me tell you my door will remain open to you
If ever once you decide to face all you’ve been through

Géraldine

upward moving

It’s been thirty years, since you burried me with your freak
But I finally said, I no more wanna be sick
How cruel and savage have you been with your little daughter
Who the hell gave you the right to slaughter her just for you to feel better

Now time has come for you to suffer
For the rest of your life is going to be bitter
By parting from you, I’ve come to an end
With dissociation and all that made me insane

God was on my side, when you raped me so hard
He sustained me intensly, waiting the moment to give me the award
So here it is now, I’m being back to life this time for good
Rushing again towards myself, now that I have understood
That the guilt is yours, it has never been mine,
You incestuous father, covered by the blood of your crime

I hope you feel at ease in hell
Now that I’m giving you back your jail
Guess I’m gonna find love at least

Me that God has ever blissed

Géraldine

Du non sens...

Hier, je t'ai appelée, toi qu'on pourrait surnommer l'anti-fée,

J'ai cru, une fois encore, que nous avions échangé.

Je t'ai parlé de ce qu'il y a de plus important dans ma vie aujourd'hui,

Tu m'a répondu "quelle bonne nouvelle", me promettant de l'annoncer à ton mari.

Ce soir, je t'ai rappelée pour répondre à la question qu'hier tu une m'avais pas posée,

Question que j'ai trouvée tout à l'heure, couchée sur le papier de ton courrier.

Mon père était là, mais à mon grand désarroi, tu ne lui avais pas dit

Tu avais oublié de lui annoncer cette nouvelle si importante dans ce qui fait ma vie.

Lasse, je suis lasse de ces communications pathologiques.

Je reste sans voix devant autant d'actes illogiques.

Tu luttes contre toi-même, te défendant d'être maléfique.

Mais la belle famille d'illusionistes se disloque lentement, malgré toi, sur le mode tragique.

Géraldine

Mental burn out

Why do you endlessly throw out words that burns like fire ?
Wouldn’t it be better if you could admire
Those who try to love you always stronger
Are you so afraid of what seems to you stranger ?

Double binds seems your only way of behaviour
Aren’t you aware of how much you get people in danger ?
Danger of dying by suffering of guilty deeper and deeper
Escaping in your morbid world has always been for you safer

How long have I searched for a way to touch you
But whatever I do, you always get through
My heart has tried to become a stone not to be torn in two
But I can never avoid your bombshells even in view

The thing is, I’m just fed up with your meanness, that’s true
How long am I going to keep on hanging on you
I guess it won’t last long now because I’m blue
and I don’t owe you nothing, I know this too

Géraldine

les deux "L" du désir : Life & Love

Elle m'a mise au monde, elle qui croyait me faire naitre

mais peut-on naitre de quelqu'un qui n'est pas né?

Si longtemps a-t-elle cherché à m'aimer en voulant me façonner,

mais la réalité lui est étrangère, la vie ne se laisse pas emprisonner.

Seules les chimères, ma bonne amie, se laissent imaginer.

Elle pourrait être si belle de cette fragilité que jamais elle n'a su montrer,

mais ce vide qui l'engloutit nous a empêchés de véritablement échanger.

La vie, c'est tout et ça tient à rien !

Ce petit rien que certains savent donner, en te laissant respirer.

Tiens, c'est ça la vie, une virgule, un trait d'union...

une respiration qui fait naitre un espace, qui te permet de trouver ta place.

Puis de la tendresse nait la caresse,

mouvement d'émoi qui me donne d'être, là, avec toi...

Toi et moi que la communion transformera en nous.
Nous, tissage si fort, qu'en un instant, il peut nous porter au dehors,

Mais, nous, tissage si fragile, que s'il vient à se rompre,

nous ferons l'expérience d'un colosse aux pieds d'argile.

Viens, mon amour, viens me faire naitre, toi qui est né, pour m'aimer.

Prends ta décision, rompts les liens qui te laissent en inadéquation

avec ce qui fait ton être profond, l'Amour, dont tu cherches la direction.

Géraldine

Heartache

CHAGALL- la crucifixion blanche

Here it comes again and again
This darkness trying to get me insane
At day I faint to be OK
But when I come back home
Once more I feel so alone

The pain hangs up on me
And give me no rest til I’ve cried so bitterly
In those moments I say life is a bitch
Cause I've been buried too many times by all that shit

So I come back to the place I know I can find You
And I whisper, shout at your Face all the despair I am through
I can feel You hear me and take all my pain
You against whom the devil is vain

all upside down am I here again
at least alive but not knowing where I am
I fall asleep, all the questions have quit
Tomorrow will be another day
Time for me to take the road again looking far away

Géraldine

In memory of nine eleven

When all is dark
Come and take my hand

Don’t leave me ruined and racked
I can’t stand the impact

My beloved have gone
I feel so much alone

Now what does living mean ?

Hold me tight You who cares

Will You be supporting me
Not to fall into despair ?

Slowly raise me up again
Help me not to be unfair

Learn me how to forgive them
Make me strong until the end

Géraldine

You, the One

You were here from the beginning
But I didn't know, me, poor little thing.

When I finally truned my face at Your's
I suudenly felt how You were close.

You never judged me
For all my faults
But gave me strength again
To walk back under the rain.

I've had to face tremendous storms
But never did you left me alone.

You are my joy, forever my All
How can You love me, You The Eternal ?

Be my guide on the steps I take
Because without You, for sure I would mistake.

Géraldine